I don't profess to have answers. I've obviously titled my blog with the question - "why not". That's what I'm doing, putting forth the question. What is a hot flash? Beyond being an experience that grabs - absolutely grabs - your complete attention and awareness, it is also, I believe, an opportunity. Why not, seriously, why not?

It's only been less than a year for me. I can only pray that I'm as lucky as the women in my family whose flashes lasted for up to 7 years. They, of course, did not consider themselves lucky. Don't get me wrong, it's winter, and I look damn good in turtlenecks, but I accept. When it's all said and done, I may just be another "nut" out there, but damn it, I'm gonna keep trying.

I'm about 50 -50. Half the time I lose it, can't think, can't focus, don't want to hear shit, and loose myself in the drama of the fire coursing through my being. The other half, tho, I catch myself, take deep breaths, and imagine myself harnessing the energy of the flash. When I feel I've garnered enough, I intend the energy to move through and heal various areas of my body in need of healing.

Why not, seriously, why not?